Too early.

This morning I woke up around 5:30. At 6 A.M. I decided to stop tossing and turning and just embrace being awake at this time of day.


I am not a morning person. I usually drag myself out of bed sometime between 7 and 8 after hitting the snooze button at least once or twice (if not four or five times). I don't have to be at work until 9, but I don't function well much before 10AM no matter what, so I actually need a good hour to hour and a half to get myself going and get ready. Since I work in a professional retail store, I do also try to look nice. My general opinion is, just in case that $10,000 diamond customer comes in today, I'd really like to look like I respect them and their money enough to bother putting some effort into my appearance.


Anyway, this week is really stressing me out, which I imagine is why I suddenly found myself wide awake at 5:30 in the morning. I can't say that it's one thing, or that it's anything major, it's kind of everything, every little thing. Have you ever seen the Sex & the City episode where Carrie keeps suddenly waking up in the middle of the night feeling like something is wrong, but she can't for the life of her figure out what it is that's been forgotten, left undone, or in any way should be bothering her? It's kind of like that, just a little less dramatic. And it's not that there's anything undone, it's that there is so so much to do, and I don't feel so much in control of it, as it is in control of me.


I would expand on that, but I'm thinking the best thing to do is to just get going on this day and that laundry list of to-do's stressing me out. I'm always wishing for more hours in the day, so I guess here's my chance to get a few extra precious minutes that I would normally be spending battling with my alarm.